The Killing – Day 26 – What I Know


First of all, I am sorry this has taken so long to write.  This past week has been ridiculous with work and, to be honest, I was such an emotional mess after the finale that even now I am having trouble expressing how much I loved it, the whole series, and everyone who had anything to do with it at all.  I even dreamed about a few of the characters last night (Terry and Rosie for sure, a few other fuzzy one lurk in there, too), so I knew I had to write something today.  Even though I can’t possibly do any of it justice this time.

Gah I don’t know what to say!  I loved this episode!  It had me on the edge of my seat, it broke my heart, made me sob, made me smile, and gave me the resolution I needed, without having to answer every single question.  Life never gives us all of the answers, but it usually gives us just as much as we need, and this episode did all of that for me.  It was the perfect end to the season, to the investigation and – if need be – to the series.  Though, I’ve been praying that won’t be the case – that we’ll get a season 3, a new case, and more time with our friends (please more Linden and Holder!!!) – but regardless, that was one hell of a finale!



Jamie Wright – you little bugger!  You were on my list for SO LONG, and then I changed it at the last minute for the wrong reasons – and because I liked you, and I didn’t want you to have been involved at all.  But here’s something I don’t really remember experiencing before – I still like you.  A lot.  I feel like a little piece of me died with you, and I still just feel so freaking BAD for you.  Why did Rosie have to be up on the 10th floor that particular night?  Why did her phone have to ring right when it did?  Why – everything?  It really WAS an accident.  At first, anyway.  And my heart broke some to see Jamie finally re-living that night as he tried to explain it to Darren, only to be rejected in the end.  Knowing the result of that night didn’t make it any easier to watch, either, let me just say.  The whole thing was freaking tragic.  I felt, after everything was said and done, that it had all happened to people I know – my friends – and it broke me some, for sure.  Thank you, Eric Laden, for bringing such an incredible, driven, flawed – yet ultimately good – character to life.  Your performances over the past two seasons has been exceptional, and I can’t tell you how sorry I am to lose Jamie.

Terry Marek – woman … you … Sigh.  I can’t tell you how many women I’ve known in my real life who could just as easily have found themselves in similar shoes.  People have done worse things for love, or trying to hold on to those they love, so I actually don’t judge you at all.  I do, however, feel absolutely terrible for you.  The expression on your face as that car slid into the water, and you heard the girl screaming from inside the trunk – I doubt I will ever forget that look.  The guilt of that moment would have haunted you for the rest of your life, anyway, even if it had been someone else inside.  I suspect your sleep would not have come easy after, even if the girl had already been dead.  But I can’t even imagine the weight you must have been carrying, because I know you’re a good person at heart – a person who just wants to be loved.  I wished I could hug you once it finally all came out, actually.  That whole scene in Rosie’s room with Stan and Mitch, Linden and Holder – I was crying with you, I was crying for you, and even looking at pictures or moments from the episode at all still bring tears to my eyes.  I imagine I’ll be a mess when I re-watch both seasons on DVD.  I so wanted Ames to ultimately have been kind of a douche, and for you to not have been involved.  Or at least just torn about protecting him and bringing justice to Rosie and the rest of the family.  But when I saw Michael and Jamie arguing, and you stepped out of your car, all dressed up, my heart sank.  And broke some more.  Just remember this: neither Jamie nor Michael threw you under the bus during the investigation, even when they were under pressure to admit what they knew.  That’s something, at least.  Jamie Anne Allman, thank you for showing us all of Terry – her passion, her humour, her strength, her kindness and her generosity.  Most of all, though, thank you for standing in her darkness and loneliness so completely that we viewers were able to stand there with you.  You did one hell of a job, lady, and have a forever fan of your work from now on.

Rosie Larsen – I am so glad that I got to know you even a little bit over the past couple of years.  Every little thing I discovered made me want to know you more, and that is hard to do when you’ve been reduced to memories, other people’s impressions, video clips and the occasional voicemail.  Your presence floated like a ghost throughout the entire investigation, and it was your death that ultimately brought us all together – viewers and cast, as well as all of the characters whose lives were touched by your life, as well as by your death.  And, can I just say how relieved I was to find out that you actually were a good girl?  I was worried a couple of times – so many conflicting tales about the kind of person you were and who you would have become were popping up all over the place since your body was found.  But in the end, I feel like your redemption came more in the form of character, rather than justice.  I am very glad for that, at least.  And I’m glad that you at least got to say goodbye to your family, after all.  I’m happy more for them, because every single one of them had begun to doubt what they’d meant to you, but your final film expressed it perfectly for you, and was probably a more healing resolution for them than anything that happened to Jamie or Terry.  Katie Findlay, not since Laura Palmer has an actress playing a dead girl so completely captured my attention and heart so quickly.  Unlike our beloved Twin Peaks girl, however, you actually managed to keep me hooked through two complete seasons, and because I liked Rosie more and more as time went on, it was your performance in the final episode that most broke me – that film the Larsens watched absolutely destroyed me, all alone in my livingroom.  I couldn’t even text my friend who was watching across the city at the same time, until after the final credits had rolled because I was such a mess.  Thank you for bringing such a powerful and wonderful presence to the memory of a character.  You gave Rosie life after her death, and made her a complete living soul – one we all felt the loss of, in the end.  Finding out who killed Rosie Larsen somehow became less important to discovering who Rosie Larsen really was, to me, and it was your talent and general awesomeness that brought her from the fictional world Veena created into ours.  Also, read your interview on the AMC page and the fact that you’re a huge dork makes me wish we were friends in real life!  lol

To all of the other creators, cast and crew, I would like to extend my heartfelt thanks and congratulations for pulling off what, in my opinion, has been one of the greatest series I have ever had the good fortune to experience.  To the fans from the AMC forums, thank you for your humour, extremely varied and well-thought-out theories, and for just being there week to week (and especially the months between seasons), hashing everything out and putting the pieces together from Day One.  To Veena Sud, I can’t thank you enough for what you’ve created with The Killing, nor for what it’s meant to me.  I have no words.  I would like to mention, though, that it was AWESOME the way you turned everything upsidedown and went against expectations.  Belko actually had a good heart; he wasn’t a perverted creep.  Gwen was actually intelligent and ambitious, but not the ice queen we may have thought she could be sometimes.  Particularly when Jamie was shot.  And yet Darren, who seemed to be the world’s first big-hearted and honest politician, was actually one of the biggest douches of them all, and in the end, I’m not sure I really feel so bad about him not being able to walk anymore!  😉

There’s so much more I want to say (like watch this awesome extra bonus video), but I’ll just ease up now, and add my plea to those already being expressed by my fellow fans:  Dear AMC, PLEASE don’t kill The Killing!!!  Bring on Season 3!!!  (And you should totally sell merch online, BTW – I want a Vote For Richmond button!!!)

Thank you.  ❤

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